Balancing the Three

Tue, 28 Aug 2007 20:50:13 GMT

"There are no fairy tales to tell, there are no happy endings here, only sad ones that find you living so far away from home...."

Mon, 09 Jul 2007 18:20:38 GMT

So as always this summer has been a let down of epic proportions. As always it starts out with people making promises as far as "doing things" over the summer go. Camping, fishing, etc however as always when time comes to pick a date or have someone take charge no one does so things get thrown to the way side and we just sort of hang out. In my case I mostly just stay home and hang out with people I haven't hung out with in a while. This is one of the reasons I don't like summer.

In other news I got a few new books I thought I would mention. Necroscope, which came recommended. I'm not super far into it but from what I've read so far I would say its really well written if nothing else. I got the next book in the Riftwar Saga Series by Raymond E. Feist. I've sung his praises so many times now so I won't go to much into it.

Transformers was awesome despite the nay sayers.

I'm finally starting to make some head way in writing a novel I've been kicking around for quite some time now.

I also think I'm starting to lose my mind.

Not much else to say, we need to get together and play some munchkin or warhammer quest though.

I'm a Lemming

Tue, 03 Jul 2007 18:34:30 GMT

33% Extroversion, 13% Intuition, 100% Emotiveness, 52% Perceptiveness

Although deeply emotional, you are extremely lacking in self-knowledge. You are somewhat needy, and when bored, may become very hedonistic. Your life is a quest for meaning, above all else. You are most like Dionysus. You are primarily interested in serving others, but your efforts are almost always unappreciated. You aren't confrontational, you're often out of tune with your own needs and unaware of the consequences of your own actions.

You are, at heart, a good person. You are very affectionate, and you are very loyal to your friends and family. You are very reluctant to burden others with your own problems, to the point that this in itself can become a problem for the people who care about you. This is a particular of a more general problem. Dionysus sends wave of ruin throughout his personal life. He is the photographer who seduces his subjects. He is the teacher who seduces a student. He is the art student who paints nonrepresentational splashes of color, he is the poet who rejects meter and content. You seek sexual partners more than anything else (this is to exploit the nurturing side of others to help fill your own void). If not sexual partners, this desire to become the object of sympathy with other people can manifest itself in other destructive ways. Stinkfist by Tool explains your condition pretty well. It's very likely that you haven't had many experienced mentors. You don't want them either, because you're the sort of person who rejects criticism and boundaries, but they're also your only hope for reaching any kind of emotional maturity.

Famous People Like You: John Lennon, Mick Jagger, Michael Jackson, Britney Spears, Marilyn Monroe, Hugh Hefner
I'd tell you to stay clear of Hermes, Icarus and Apollo, but you could probably learn something from them. You're least likely to hurt The Oracle, Atlas, Prometheus, and Daedalus, but Atlas and Daedalus won't like you very much.
Seek out: The Oracle, Prometheus

Mostly a good description of me, I don't seek out sexual partners though. I'd like to think I'm aware of my needs and the consequences of my actions.

Thu, 28 Jun 2007 18:25:16 GMT

Let me first give some back ground on this one. There was a "Have Your Say" on the BBC website (which is like a user submitted discussion of news events, subjects etc) about Anti-Americanism. This really set me off but I wasn't able to post cause you have to sign up and I really hate going through all of that just to post something. So I'd rather just post something here and get YOUR feedback as I value your opinion MORE than some random person.

Most of the arguments about why there is anti-american sentiment is because we are and I quote "hypocritical, arrogant, and ignorant" now this just wasn't one poster that posted this. There were a good five or more (I didn't read all of the post just a few pages worth) people that posted this word for word. Now being someone that lives here I will be the first to admit that many of those who live here are indeed ignorant. Many of the people I talk to barely know their geography of the world and have very little knowledge of their own local governments actions let alone the countries or the worlds. Then they go around talking about subjects in those areas like they have a PHD in it. Now I'm not saying I'm very knowledgeable when it comes to politics, but I'll be the first to admit I'm not rather than acting like I have a firm grasp of things. Then theres the arrogant argument. I'll give a little story to prove this one. I was talking with my friends about moving to europe and the first thing they told me was that I was "not an american" that I "should just move if I don't like it here" and we have all heard people being called unpatriotic if they speak out against their government and its decisions and actions. Then theres the old favorite of Americans calling this the "greatest country on earth" when most haven't even been outside of it. Personally I don't think its the greatest country on earth. I mean its good, its not great. I think we have a long way to go before claiming that title. I will no doubt be marked as unpatriotic for making that statement though. Last but not least they say we are hypocritical, this is a pretty solid statement. Time and time again there is proof. Freedom of speech but not if your holding up a sign at a school event. "In God we trust" but no prayer in schools etc etc. In the end however I don't see why we are branded for doing these things. There are plenty of arrogant, ignorant, and hypocritical people out there. This is not something that americans invented. This is part of humanity and you will find these people in europe the middle east and beyond.

In the end most of the rest of the arguments where that our governments actions were to blame for anti american sentiment which I can see. However I do not understand why we must be lumped together with those backstabbing, money grubbers up in D.C. What my government does should not be a reflection of who I am or how I think. I think if these people where informed as they say they are they would realize that most of america doesn't like our governments foreign policy and doesn't back Bush.

Comments/thoughts/flames/rants go....

Fri, 22 Jun 2007 00:24:46 GMT

Pictures, so many people I know take loads of them. Their myspace picture in constant flux due to the enormous amounts of photos taken of them and those they are in constant contact with. On the one hand it makes me wish that I had/do/will take more pictures. That I might be able to keep some sort of concrete history of the things I do with my friends. On the other hand do I really care. Most of what we do is pretty dull. We hang out, watch movies, play games, party on occasion, and play inordinate amounts of poker. So these really aren't photo worthy if you ask me. Besides, if I did take those pictures what would I do with them? Put them in a box or an album sure, but would I take them out to look at them? Maybe, but maybe not they may just end up sitting there collecting dust. I guess in the end pictures are meant to be tucked away until they are forgotten about and rediscovered in the distant future, and we take them out and look fondly at them like we rediscovered our past or something. In the meantime I'm going to resolve myself to take more if for no other reason than the fact that I have a really nice camera.

In other news I'm going with my pops to go see a jazz concert tonight, which in and of itself is really cool. The fact that its with my dad is really even cooler as we really don't seem to have very much time to just hang. That and we really have a hard time conversing about stuff, and not end up in some weird argument where we wonder why we were yelling at each other at the end of it. Music is where we tend to share some common ground so it should be cool.

Tue, 19 Jun 2007 16:51:00 GMT

Well here I am, wishing that there was something note worthy going on in my life. However, to quote Flogging Molly "Its the same old story again and again and again.". I mean besides the fact that I'm out of school for summer not much else has changed.

I've noticed that for the most part my life tends to avoid big changes. Either that or I avoid them out of fear. Either explanation would make perfect sense in my mind. I mean I hate rollercoasters, bungie cords, cliff jumping, high diving, racing, and pretty much any adrenaline junkie activity. I like my feet on the ground and control over whats going on around me. At least for the most part. I choose my friends carefully and if I can't trust you I dump you so fast it's going to make your head spin. I'm very quiet in class and don't say much. I hate getting up in front of the class. In short I'm shy and spineless.

On the one hand it makes me wonder what I'm missing out on. I certainly realize that I need to push myself to get over this...."social anxiety"? But on the other hand I just think "I don't HAVE to do anything.". In the end I'd rather be train hopping in europe visiting castles and museums. Looking at artwork or just sitting down at a cafe or a bar and drinking coffee or beer and looking out over a river thats had songs written about it since before my great grandparents were born. *shrug* and in the end who's better the guy who enriches his life by breaking his bones or the one that enriches his life by taking notice of the little things and enjoying the simple things in life?

I'm not even sure why I wrote this. I guess it seems I'm caught between a whole bunch of different worlds. I have a group of friends that I'm mildly involved with on occasion that I hang out with every now and then and they are always doing stuff. Every time I hang out with them I'm struck by the notion that I'm nothing like them, but I wish I would hang out with them more often. On the other hand there is my group of good friends that I hang out with on a consistent basis. Now I'm not saying I don't enjoy hanging out with them, but its usually the same old dull stuff we do all the time. Movies, video games, poker rinse repeat.

I guess I'm trying to figure out a way to convey the way I'm feeling with little success. Its this weird pit of the stomach feeling, I'm not even sure what it is myself. In the end this post has served no purpose but to confuse and confound. Which is generally what my posts do. Have a nice day :).

Thu, 14 Jun 2007 06:45:49 GMT

I just thought of this, so I figured I'd post it cause I'm bored with nothing else to do. You know how people say I'm/he/she is really opinionated. I was thinking, that seems really moronic to say. As the way you see the world and shape your ideas about things are, for the most part, purely opinions anyway. So in short, thats like saying your human being. Of course their opinionated everyone is. I mean its not possible to be non-opinionated. It is possible to be a spineless yes man, but that man still has opinions he just doesn't express them. I know I'm weird.

In truth I should be studying how RNA is synthesized from DNA, and the function of aminoacyl-tRNA in the production of proteins inside the cell. However I'd rather just write out those words so I look intelligent.

In other news I went down to hastings and was in the mood to watch a film. I had no idea what to get when I got there. However by the time I left I had like 7 movies and had spent 50 dollars, and I even had to put some back cause I didn't want to spend a lot (granted after having spent 50 I think it was a moot point). A list follows: Papillon with steve mcqueen and dustin hoffman (its an oldy but a goody), The Italion Job (the original one with Michael Caine), The Last Castle with robert redford, Suicide Kings with Christopher Walkens, and of course one of my all time favorites The Great Escape with Steve McQueen, Spanish Prisoner (really good twist movie), and lastly Made with Brad Garrett. I also considered getting Where Eagles Dare but they didn't have it. If you haven't seen any of these I would recommend watching em.

To Brian

Tue, 12 Jun 2007 16:21:54 GMT

To Brian, Happy Early Birthday, as I will most likely forget about this I better post it now. As a few hours from now all I will be able to think about is my impending finals.

Sat, 02 Jun 2007 19:02:58 GMT

I don't know what to do or what to think or what to say. Never have never will. I can only go on living the way I have been. If change is to occur it will be by some force outside myself that it is accomplished. It has been in the past and will be in the future. Don't expect me to know what I'm doing or know where I'm going, thats the fun in life and I would have it no other way. I can only hope and pray that some divine inspiration will come soon and the path that I have to walk is laid out in simple terms. I don't need a prophecy, just a little guidance. However even if that doesn't occur I will still wake up in the knowledge that beyond this world there is another. Which I have been, on occasion, allowed to peer into.

There is not much to report, life goes on as it always has. It seems that if something bad is happening that it is happening to someone else. That if some drastic change has come, it has come to someone else. This doesn't necessarily bother me. I'm not asking for my car to break down or my friend to get shot. I'm merely commenting on what I have known for so long. That I am the "eye of the storm" the person who will forever be surrounded by people in chaos and turmoil, but will not have much of it in his own life. I'm having a hard time wrapping this up it seems so I'll just end on that note.

Fri, 11 May 2007 00:29:02 GMT

You know what I'm tired of, the whole "why do [insert gender here]" type discussions. I love to hate them. Its funny too cause its usually like, "why are men so selfish"? Well first of all selfishness is not a trait restricted to any one gender, and I mean the list of topics like this just goes on and on and on. I really wish people would stop........and think before they posted on some forum or opened their mouth to say things like this. Otherwise if you must say things like this than at least include both men and women in the picture and say something like, "why are people like this". I also love to hate the fact that there are gobs and gobs of guys running around ruining my reputation as a person simply because they fall within the same gender as me. I'm automatically lumped in together with them because I'm male. Granted I'm sure there are women who feel the same way, but I feel its not as hard for a woman in this area as it is for a guy. At least in terms of being labeled before you have even had a chance to say or do anything. Discuss/flame/etc

Mon, 07 May 2007 04:58:53 GMT

Haha like I have something to post. In all seriousness though, biology is getting pretty crazy. I'll get out of class and go home and do something and all of a sudden some big word will come out of nowhere and surface and I won't be able to get it out of my head. I'll just spend the rest of the day trying to remember what the word means too. Its pretty weird. I guess it means I'm learning the material though so I guess thats good. I'm doing pretty well in my classes I suppose. I'm doing well at work and with working out. Now if I can only get on track with everything else in my life I'd be ok. I keep wishing I could wake up and it would be a simpler time, or that I would wake up and I would be back in middle school or something and I could do everything over again. I just hope I don't f**k anything else up so I don't have to look back with regrets. I never really thought I ever had any regrets till I really thought about it.

Fri, 27 Apr 2007 18:11:13 GMT

Bored at work, I lost my license so yea thats no good. I have to go the dmv *UGH* to get a new one. Long lines and a Mexican to Anglo-Saxon ratio that is shocking to see, the DMV is the worst place ever. I'm taking a book which I am halfway through to read. I will no doubt finish it and still have time to kill. Contrary to popular belief I am not a drunk. I did however get drunk last weekend and have a hangover. I will not be drinking any time in the for see able future. I have the opportunity to go to belgium this summer with my father. So if you want to come with and you have the money to go I was told I could bring a friend with me this time. I'm debating whether or not to go to the mall. The Tri-Cities has no place to meet singles. Its like a wasteland for anyone without a girl friend already. It seems as if the mall is really the only option but good lord its one of the worst places ever. Its also filled with teenage girls which isn't what I'm looking for. *sigh* I guess I'm just screwed unless I start going clubbing or bar hopping, both options I despise. Maybe I should go to Bethel seemed to work for Ben....

For what ails me

Wed, 25 Apr 2007 06:10:12 GMT

"Before I knew your name or had seen your face, I'd crossed space and time, just to hold your hand, to feel the heat from your body. I'd sat and listened to your heartbeat, I was the cool breeze on those days you didn't feel like going on. I was the gentle whisper in your time of need, I was the presence in your room on those nights where you cried yourself to sleep, I held your hand on those nights and wept that I couldn't be there to comfort you. May God speed the passing of these days that lie between me and you."

Flogging Molly

Mon, 23 Apr 2007 02:00:07 GMT

They are awesome, end post.

Songs that make you cry/make you depressed/you listen to when your depressed

Fri, 20 Apr 2007 05:45:37 GMT

Ill start:

Daniel Powter: Had a bad day
Three Doors Down: here without you
Train: drop of jupiter
Skillet: You are faithful
Evanescence: Lithium

also worship songs don't count..

Id rather be sober for that...

Sat, 14 Apr 2007 16:54:03 GMT

I was thinking about something last night. I don't really mind buying booze for my friends. I mean I would rather they get drunk around me, rather than go get drunk somewhere and wake up naked down by the columbia. However what I don't like is the conclusion I came to last night. That they aren't simply drinking cause they aren't legally supposed to and they want to feel cool by having a beer, that I wouldn't mind, but that in fact they are just drinking to get a high so they can feel better about the problems in their life. I guess I'm the weird one for wanting to be sober whenever I feel depressed. I want to be aware of whats going on when I feel like shit. Be there in the middle of it, and deal with it mono e mono. I guess I never realized that not everyone feels that way about it. Now I'm not sure I want to keep buying beer for em. I want to see my friends grow up to be people who dealt with their problems and can handle substances like that with grace and responsibility. Instead of just getting plastered every chance they get and ending up in AA meetings. I think tommy's dad, who we all know, should be a good example of this. He was an alcoholic for many years, he beat it and now he doesn't touch the stuff. Except for the occasional o'douls which is like 1% alcohol. Maybe I just expect to much, but its not because I don't think they have it in em. I know they all the capacity for so much more, I think a lot of em just don't think that it matters.

What is this POSTING you speak of

Wed, 28 Mar 2007 20:32:13 GMT

So long time no post. Not much to be updated upon. Basically been hanging out, wasting time instead of signing up for the classes I need to be taking this quarter. Spending gobs of time with Nathan, Tommy, Jacob, Spencer, and Jared. This weekend was tits, we hung out over at toms house we weren't sure what to do so someone got the bright idea that we should go drive around the block and let jacob practice driving a stick. So with jared and jacob in the front and me, spencer, and tommy in the back. I had some cigars in my car so we busted em out. For some reason jacob decided to turn on the radio and started blaring mexican polka. So heres the seen, your driving through richland and you see a beat up truck full of guys driving around with 4 people in the back smoking and listening to mexican polka. Most fun ever, then we decided to go to Applebees, where I consumed a long island ice tea. I felt jipped cause there was no actual ice tea just 6 shots of stuff and a lemon and some coke for coloring. I'm not exactly the largest of people either so as you can expect I was rather tipsy by the time we left. Tommy wanted me to go Jareds house and have a few shots of vodka, I was down but we never did that. Which was probably a good idea as I probably would have blacked out or something after that. After that we went back to toms house and had ice cream or something (I'm probably getting the events mixed up I'm sure) needless to say I had 3 cigars by the end of the night and one long island ice tea. Much laughter was had by all, was a good weekend.

On the music front I finally got the cds I ordered, I wonder if I've already posted this. If I have I apologize but I'm too lazy to check. Agatsuma Hiromitsu and Yoshida Brothers both of whom sound beautiful beyond belief. They play a japanese three stringed instrument called a tsagura-shamisen which has a three foot long neck. It's got a really beautiful sound. I'm loving these cd's and if you ever get a chance to be in my car I'll have to play it for you. Beyond that there isn't much to report. Hope your lives are going well.

Mmmmmm music.

Mon, 19 Mar 2007 02:37:40 GMT

So I bought a lot of cd's with the money that my parents gave me for my b-day. The evanescence cd because I love her voice and hey I'd rather support an artist that I like rather than just dling her music (even though when I didn't have money I dled her new cd, lets not talk about that though). I also got the three days grace cd, thanks to ofadoubt for her wonderful taste in music. The cd rocks hardcore. Apparently mos def had a new cd out so I picked it up. I've never seen a cd that was done professionally that was in a clear case without box art and without the USUAL jewel case. It was a little unnerving. Fort Minor was also purchased, gotta love those guys. I had to buy the other cd's on line cause apparently Agatsuma Hiromitsu and the Yoshida Brothers aren't "mainstream" enough to actually be stocked in any store. I wasn't happy about that. I also bought "The Venture Brothers" volume 1, which is awesome to the max.

Funny story, my friend has a brewery in his house. He does home brew beers hes a real connoisseur of beer so this morning at church he gives me a birthday present of his latest creation. I thought it was pretty funny cause I was carrying a bottle of beer around church lol. Trust me only in my church would someone be able to get away with THAT lol.

Trying to start working out again. Which consists of like hour long walks around the neighborhood. Want to start lifting again try to gain some freaking muscle mass. More because I'm like way to skinny than for any aesthetic need. My dreams are getting weirder and weirder each night, this whole going to bed like at 8:00 o'clock thing is also freaking me out.

The big 2 1

Sat, 17 Mar 2007 16:28:16 GMT

Sooooo, I'm 21 now. I'm pretty pitiful for a 21 year old too. My birthday consisted of me going out with the family and having dinner at olive garden. Then I just went home and watched a funny dvd. I've been pretty depressed about this whole being 21 thing. I feel like I haven't taken full advantage of life and that I've been avoiding things. Mainly the idea that I'm 21 but I don't have my degree yet. This one may sound pretty stupid but when I was 15 and imagined being 21 I expected that I would have been done by now. One can never expect that things that life will throw at you though. Had I done a better job of planning I might have had my degree by now, *shrug* oh well. I just keep telling myself that things could be worse. I could be living on the street somewhere digging day old sandwiches out of dumpsters. I'm a firm believe however in the idea that no matter what circumstance you are in there is always something you can complain about. I've seen people who are too wealthy for their own good complain about things. I have of course seen the poor complain, as well as everyone in between. It just goes to show that you should be thankful for what you have. Cause when/if you ever get more money or solve the problems in your life there will be another problem waiting in the wings for you. Being 21 and never having had a girlfriend, THATS what REALLY pisses me off. Especially now that I know that if I had put forth a little effort I could have gotten one. Being shy sucks.

Tue, 13 Mar 2007 16:02:32 GMT

So my father is back from Croatia. Guess what he brought me back.....a delta airline shirt. If that wasnt bad enough it was an extra large. When he gave it to me I had the "wtf" look on my face so he preceded to tell me that he had stayed an extra night in Amsterdam on the flight there and it was "courtesy of delta airlines". If that was somehow supposed to make me feel better about the fact that he went to another country and all he brought me back was some shit he got from an airline he SUPER FAILED. I would have rather he just not gotten me anything rather than trying to pawn that piece of crap off on me. He was like, "it will shrink". I dont CARE if it shrinks its still a stupid shirt. Thats not where his antics stop either. This morning he decides to get up at like 6:30am, this doesn't bother me as I am not in the habit of judging you based on what time you get up. However my father isn't exactly like everyone else. He's one of those anomolies in society (let me digress for a moment to say that there is a Mcdonald's commercial that showcases this exact type of person and if you have seen that commercial you might recognize some of the language) he's a morning person. So where as I would wake up and would rather cut myself than half to talk to someone my father is rip roaring and ready to go the moment he sets his feet on the floor. Again I'm not going to judge you based on how you wake up. Here is where I get mad though. When you wake up and you are completely inconsiderate of everyone else. He goes to the kitchen and from the sounds of it just starts throwing pots. I imagine he was cooking but JEESEE CREESEE it sounded like he was trying to start his own band in there with all the racket he was making. To top it all off he comes into my room, mind you I am already awake at this point contemplating killing the man, and he deigns to ask me whether I am going to class!?! Now granted if he hadn't been there I just woulda slept till 11:00 but considering I'm not in the mood to tell him I flunked my classes, I just put on a good show and came to school.

In other news, Eddie Izzard has a new show. Considering its Eddie freakin Izzard I expected it would be a comedy. Maybe it will be later on down the road, from the looks of the first episode however it looks to be more like a drama. *shrug* I don't mind, I think the premise is original and it may yet turn out to be some good T.V. Because Eddie Izzard is awesome I hope the show turns out well, and people watch it. With it's timeslot being what it is though I'm not sure that thats what will happen. Its on on Mondays on FX at 10oclock. I wonder if they could have given him a crappier time slot on a worse network.

Sat, 10 Mar 2007 17:57:38 GMT

Wow......every time someone reads the verses about love I start taking stock and (like every human being) I come up short. There are things I've learned to do. Like the part about not keeping records of wrong, it isn't EASY but I think I've gotten a pretty good handle on it. The part about not being angered though it like the biggest one for me. I have a short fuse about certain things and if you happen to push that certain button, "BOOM Your head esplode", so I still need to work on that one. The other thing thats crazy is that if you read through the word you notice that that is the ONE thing that we should be seeking. Above all else we should have love. "The greatest of these is love..." "but if you have not love you are as nothing".

Whenever I take stock of my life and do a little house cleaning (spiritual house cleaning that is) I realize how many areas I come up short in. Then I remember that I don't live because I DID something I LIVE because God wills it. Then I realize that there isn't anything I could DO to make him not WILL it to be so. So I calm down and thank him for willing me into existence, and ask him to teach me how to TRULY love. I don't think I say it often enough I guess, but if I ever say it to you it doesn't mean I love you like a gf loves a bf but that I won't keep a record of your wrongs/that I will suffer with you through all things/that I will try to not be easily angered by you/that I will hope the best for you/that I try to place your interests above my own/that I will try to make my friendship come with no strings attached. THAT is true love, may God teach me to walk in that. You can keep your prophecy and tongues.

Thu, 08 Mar 2007 21:54:47 GMT

Hmm, haven't posted in a while. If I could be sure these actually get read I might do it more often. Needless to say, I think I've come to terms with the fact that I'm going to flucnk both my classes. Oh well, I don't mind that much at this point I'm pretty apathetic about it. I just lost my drive that I had last quarter. I'll just need to find it again for next quarter. Been playing a lot of Battlefield 2142 and been writing my book. I finally got past the first few pages and have been keeping focused on writing new material rather than just going back and reading and revising old stuff. I still don't know how I'm going to go about splitting up chapters and stuff like that. I guess I'll just write straight wall to wall and then just go back and format. So far it's coming along. I'm not to thrilled with the writing but like I said I'd rather write new content and then go back and rewrite. Not much else to tell, cept that I've been having weird dreams. We need to play more warhammer quest but thats just me.

Drum roll plz

Sat, 03 Mar 2007 19:03:24 GMT

Advanced Global Personality Test Results

Extraversion	\|\|\|\|\|\|	23%
Stability	\|\|\|\|\|\|	26%
Orderliness	\|\|\|\|	16%
Accommodation	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Interdependence	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Intellectual	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Mystical	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	90%
Artistic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	76%
Religious	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	90%
Hedonism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Materialism	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Narcissism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Adventurousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Work ethic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Self absorbed	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Conflict seeking	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Need to dominate	\|\|	10%

Romantic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	90%
Avoidant	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Anti-authority	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Wealth	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Dependency	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Change averse	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Cautiousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	76%
Individuality	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Sexuality	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Peter pan complex	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Physical security	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	90%
Physical Fitness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	64%
Histrionic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Paranoia	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Vanity	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Hypersensitivity	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	76%
Female cliche	\|\|\|\|	16%

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I hate to be that guy...

Sat, 03 Mar 2007 18:50:51 GMT

but I finally bought BF2142 and am playing it like a maniac. It is very addicting, if you have it or ever get a chance to play add recombanite to your buddy list (thats me of course) and come play with me.

On another front school seems to be going down the drain pretty fast. I'm pretty sure I'll be flunking math as I haven't done a single once of homework for that class. Not that we have to turn homework in for a grade mind you, but it certainly doesn't avail you much if you don't do the homework as we still have quizzes and tests. The last test we took I got a 39% on. It was funny cause the guy next to me said he had gotten a really bad score on the test. He said he had gotten a 55 before he had even gotten the test back. I told him I probably got a lower score. So he got his test back and sure enough he had a 55. He showed it to me and was like "Look its bad right." I just shrugged and waited when I got mine back and saw the 39% on it I just smiled handed it to him and was like "What did I say?" His face was so funny he had a real worried look on his face and he leaned over and whispered in hushed tones like he was selling US secrets to china and asked me if I was going to drop the class. I just laughed and shook my head. It was too late to get a refund and a dropped class is little better than a zero. Besides I'm not real broken up about a failed class. It just means I've got to work and make enough money so I can go another round with this class. I'll be sure to get a better teacher and a class at a much better time next quarter.

In other news my Dad just left for Croatia which in my book is ridiculous. This was of course two days after his birthday. My mom planned a party for some close friends at their local hang out spot. I think its funny that my parents tend to get out more than I do. *shrug* My father is the talkative one in the family though, everyone else is real shy and quiet me, my mom , and my brother are all like that. My dad of course can strike up conversations with strangers anywhere and anytime. He will usually find someone with the coolest job and the coolest stories too. I think its cool that hes going to Croatia though, and its also a little weird for him to be sent to such an odd country. Oh well, I'm sure he'll be fine, of course my mother does not share that sentiment but then again she never does no matter where he goes. I doubt very much that terrorists are too interested in a little ex-communist block country. Of course I've been wrong before.

In other other other news if you had a dream that you would like interpreted I know some people who would like the practice. They have been taking classes and would love a shot at tackling some dreams. If you want you can email em to me and I'll take em to the guys and have em interpret em and email the response back to you.

Sitting here at work....

Sat, 24 Feb 2007 17:27:23 GMT

After months without a working computer things are finally back online. I got my new motherboard installed and I'm up and working again. Every time I turn my computer on I still expect to hear it beeping at me, but of course it doesn't. Now I just have to reload all the crap I had on it before. UGH!

In other news I finally bought BattleField 2142 so I can now play it on my own computer. Ill try not to bore you with video game news however.

We saw 23 last night, I have mixed feelings about the movie however. Jim Carrey did a good job of acting and the rest of the cast did pretty well too. Some of the cinematography was pretty cool. The story line was original interesting but at some points disappointing. It was worth seeing once I guess. If you haven't seen it I'd recommend seeing it regardless of my poor review. I would have preferred if the movie had been "300" as that movie looks like it will own.

So for those in the know (I think Brian might know this band, I doubt many others will however) the new DeepDish CD is awesome.